Boy there are some unhealthy views and fixations about unattainable relationships here. This is so unhealthy. As one individual posted, you've got to separate fantasy from reality.

I reiterate another's reply, stop all contact, now.

Meet new people.

Concentrate on those friendships and relationships you already have.

See a therapist and allow yourself the freedom to listen and accept what they say.

Change up your routine. Like any addiction, thoughts of the subject of their abuse is habitual. A change of routine and habits often reduces the thoughts.

Try using some sensory therapy. When I think about my own issue, I concentrate on rubbing a stone in my hand. It helps take away the thought and give me some relief and relaxation.

Hope this helps Elin (and others)

Incidentally, I am relieved thaat you have taken the step to put this out there. It tells me you are aware this is wrong and are looking for reinforcement by way of our support. This is promising.