Hi Wendy, AKA Rap. I'm Sandy, AKA Sandy!

I feel like my brain was fried those past couple of days! Everything was too speedy, too buzzy, too tempting. I probably lost 500 million brain cells during that experience!! Good thing I have some to spare!!

You mentioned recognizing when you are in crisis. I'm not sure. Is what I went through a "crisis"? I mean, I certainly wasn't doing well....but I guess it's easier to look back when it's over...rather like childbirth. It wasn't that bad, you know?

I think I'm dealing okay with the plane crash today. I flashed back some when I saw the news report this evening, but I think it's just a short-term "freak". But having it happen so close to home again, and then seeing the wreckage....it just brought back some memories.

Yes, I think I get what you're saying about "feeling bad". I think I felt that way because my speedy experience felt like I was on a drug trip! I was so buzzed around my children....my body and my mind. It was just so not right!!! So I guess that's why I felt like I was bad. But it really wasn't my fault, right? I didn't have any control over my body deciding to express it's stress through me in that manner. But I sure didn't feel safe. It was too close to crossing over the line and acting upon those ideas. Scary stuff.

I hope you are doing well. Stay away from that St. John's Wart!!

Have a wonderful day!

Hugs,
Sandy