I was going to post a ramble on some other thread, but decided against it.

Her's the bulk of it, simply posted here for the sake of elaborating my thoughts:

All I can think now is that I am doomed in life. I'm stupid, hopelessly stupid. Completely useless and incapable of acquiring the skills I need to survive. I've found two separate places proving it: one series of articles discussing how you need STEM skills and tech knowledge to be at all employable today, and this quote on another forum I frequent (where a similar topic was being discussed):

Quote:

Welcome to the IT age, luddites - start coding or die. This is progress.

I'm incapable of coding. I'm incapable of doing math, or learning science in anything more than the most basic fashion. I'm useless and I deserve to die. I will die, before my time, because I'm a useless piece of subhuman trash who's afraid of progress and inherently incapable of keeping up....it's impossible, it's pointless. I'm going to die, I want to die.

Someone turn my brain off please.

Okay, I started breaking down there at the end. But at the same time, the concern is real. If it's really true that someone who isn't STEM-focused is unemployable and useless, I don't know what to do. It doesn't help that some part of me is a little afraid of becoming STEM-focused, for a variety of stupid feeling reasons; despite also being interested. But mostly I know it's beyond me.

I once made a thread on another site asking about careers that don't require any kind of math, since I can't do it. These included art, marketing, writing, and a few other things. Someone even suggested teaching (I would make a horrible teacher). Yet, I don't know, I'm lost. I mean, all I can apply for are ervice jobs, since I have no qualifications (I tried talking about this to a parent who goes on with "You don't know that! You might go in for an interview and the manager will say 'Well, you aren't qualified for this, but we could put you over here'"...no. That doesn't happen any more. And I get screened out before that because every effing job tells you to go online first and my personality sucks) Okay, breathe...

My main point is, what to do? What to do when I'm useless at everything relevant, and even afraid to learn?

Also, I kind of know I'm a luddite at heart. Tech progress irritates me at best and scares the **** out of me at worst. I described elsewhere it's this abject fear - this knowledge - that I can't keep up, never will be able to keep up, and am clingy enough that I don't know if I want to keep up. I'm deeply ashamed of all of this, I know it's bad, so I'm willing to take advice on how to change this as well.

Hopefully this post is coherent.