i feel anxious. i was reading my old facebooks messages. there were a ton of messages with Ts wife from when i was in the program. from like 2011. i forgot all about that. reading them made me feel weird because i was obviously psychotic at points. i just don't remember it. i mean, reading it reminded me of it but i had forgotten about it. also i didnt remember me and Ts wife being that close and talking that much. a lot of it was about substance abuse... i got in trouble a few times in the program for smoking weed.

anyway reading all of that just made me feel weird and anxious and like i want to exit my body

my friend is gona be texting me soon... we are going to spartanburg when she gets off work at 2. so hopefully this feeling will fade

does anyone else feel weird when they think back to their past hallucinations and/or delusions?