I think I'm bad getting my story across, ��, ill try and make better sense , I know its not intentional , but we were close he was a part of my life , a huge part , then he was gone in a flash ,I found out on fb about gf , we had a CLOSE relationship , that I was blindsided in a way that this happened, I went to sleep with a huge person in my life and woke up and he was gone , I know he doesn't mean to do these things so I can't get mad but it hurts, I feel like I don't exist to him now , I was very good to him , its all confusing ? I know he said in past he doesn't know if ge could ever really hold down a relationship? That they always end bad��, its not a question of changing sears its a normal sized bus , everyday we sit at diff seats , the presscense of her makes me upset , because It means she comes in from out of town and is staying at his house , makes sense if she's his gf but to see it in front of me is heartbreaking , in the beginning I know he used to go visit her in her town , but now if she's in my neighborhood alot I can't go out alot , and when I do have to watch where I go , it hurts because I look ay her , and think she's better than me cause she got him��, and i don't know how i list my friend , its hard to explain but seeing her breaks my heart, i think she knows who i am but not sure , but if she doesn't know me why would she be bothered , ger bf didn't stop talking to her after 15 yrs and very very close relationship, like he did me ? I'm just so confused , so hurt and lost . I miss him alot and then i get on and see her its too much ��