I don't go near psychiatrists, but I can relate to your predicament with therapists. I have also wasted a lot of time and money in pursuit of help. Feels like needle in a haystack, and I have given up for the time being. Plus more I read and experience, the less clear I am as to how a therapist would help.

And yes steep fees can be major problem. One psychologist wanted USD$220/hr just to talk. I don't get it.

I would love to have a dedicated person to talk to a couple times per week, but I don't know what sort of person either. Maybe a spiritual professional.

For me a critical thing is that there be little or no power disparity. I don't want to end up subordinating to an external authority. I did that before and ended up shattered.