There are times when I feel like I can't possibly keep up with my work load. Like I could never learn what the kids (my word for them) in the next office are doing naturally. When I feel like I would give anything just to care about it again. But ultimately I know that most of that is my poor self-esteem and my need for failure talking. I can't totally ignore those things yet because they are really loud to me, but at least I know that I could ignore them, if I could just figure it out. You don't have to listen to your inner negativity. You're better than that.