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Originally Posted by CyborgGirl001
Interesting post. However, when I initially posted it was more about my sexual orientation (in the context of what gender I am attracted to) then anything sexual...I actually personally do not think much of sexual topics and I am more concerned with knowing the overall person as much as I can (inside out, which I have never done yet). But if you are comfortable with your sexuality (and anyone else who is) that is totally fine. It is actually very bold to state that and very bold of you to post how you feel overall. I do kind of see where you are coming from. Hm...well I am not the best person with advice (since I have a lot to work on and I am a completely quiet hermit who really does not socialize very much and is very introverted...more like extremely introverted) but I think you should stick to what you believe in I guess. People will judge everyone on everything but it does not mean it should or will always affect everyone. Everyone has different viewpoints and philosophies and who really cares what people who do not agree with them think? If they try really hard to enforce their opinion that means they care way too much about things that are not even their own business. I cannot speak for the complexity of relationships or things to even do with them as I do not even have one nor did I ever have one in my entire life. As for shutting people out and how scary relationships can be, I see what you are saying. There is a lot of pressure these days (especially where I currently reside) to be in a relationship or to even get married, settle down and have children. Or to go through relationships all the time...which is one of the many reasons I shut out society and other people. I am tired of the expectations and I will just follow the ones I set for myself instead of falling into a trap or being a "sheep" and following the herd out of pressure.
(Not sure if I made sense but I did try)...
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See I relate to you on that first part too in the way of my orientation too. I am bi, but not really into anyone. Like it's hard for me to like anyone I'm so picky and I'm ok with that. I'd rather be alone than be with someone I don't like at all.
The last part hit me exactly that is exactly me. I can't get married, I can't go out have kids and be tied down to someone I don't want to do that. I don't like it. I simply don't, it's just my preference becomes an objectification when I dated people, they expected me to want to have kids and all this ****. I'm not ready for and I don't care about, I was stupid to just say, "ok." and move on. Like now I'm, "hell naw." nothing convinces from most people to give a reason to like them that way. More the opposite it's not that I'm cynical I love my friends, even when their unpleasant and assholes, but relationships no it's either this way for certain things or no way.
I'm not moving, I can easily give someone up as quickly as they came in. It took me a long time to get the hang of that. I know what I won't be prepared for when everything goes right and my judgment goes blinded or sour and I may be the one who is at fault and I maybe the one who is scrutinized and I maybe the person who couldn't see past that something could go really wrong easily and I'm too oblivious to it, because the person is too awesome.
That is what scares me, especially over being single^^
It feels like I can't even tell anyone how I would feel if I liked them, because I don't like them. I realized my natural response is trained to say no, and so as a guy it looks like I'm shy or introverted, but I just don't like people. I'm going at being extroverted and introverted. I just need as much space as I do want closeness a balance. That's just not possible as of now.