I know I made a post before about my friend who passed away. I hate how I can only see pictures. I didn't get to see him before he died the way I wanted badly.

I can't help but cry, because I ****ing miss him so much. I've been feeling much more lonely, because it sucks so much. I really need a new best friend in my life now, but that person wont' come. I've been so angry how neglected I've been feeling this whole past couple years and losing him pushed me over the edge and that I don't want anymore people in my life to lose. I am too hurt and I wish this pain would stop.