i've been depressed as long as i can remember - it never gets better (and if i wasn't on medication i'd most certainly be dead)

i'm about to lose my second job - essentially because of my depression

just finished my third hospitalization

i found a nice new T but i'm not going to have insurance or money to keep going to him or for my meds for that matter

i have about enough money to pay my mortgage for the next two months

what's the point of fighting?

i fought the last time i quit my job because i was too depressed to keep going - i fought to find another, get my finances in order, get back on my feet and for what

to fall again? only this time to fall further...

my body is one scar now

there's just no point...no point at all

the pain never stops and it will never go away

and i will always fail

i've always been in pain and i've always failed

it's never going to be any different

its never going to get better