T,

I need to get it emotionally that I'm nothing but one patient among many.

You said "trust is mutual" when I said I felt safe and trusted you. Then you said "of course I won't trust you to the max!" with a laugh.

"Of course, obviously!" I said, laughing too, but secretly I was crushed, even though I know it's true.

I will never matter much to you. I'm replaceable. I'm not special or unique. I know that already.