I haven't had an episode in a while where I don't feel functional.

But I'm having problems coping with perceived loss of friends and then I spent the last 3 hours mass texting bf which made the initial upset feelings about 100000x worse and he didn't answer so i thought he was mad at me but he was sleeping and text me back to tell me because of the mass texting.

I think I need to stay off tumblr too, but it's addicting. X.x I think I am starting to regress because I see so much justification for behaviors I've learned to work through. The site just makes me feel ignored and abandoned. I don't know why I keep logging in. It's not healthy though. It feels like a compulsion.