This is coming out wrong I apologize , If I know she's gonna be on certain days ill walk , it will be difficult to do , since the bus is a big help as far as transportation but I don't wanna get upset in the morning , I usually put on my music and block it out. But if i see her I can't help it , it comes rushing back its not healthy for me so u rather remove myself from the bus for my own health .but if I know she only takes bus mon and Tuesday then rest of wk I can take it . I def think well i know in a way he is very worried about running into me , even though we don't speak , I know in his heart he worries about seeing me upset , hes close with my fam and friends so its sorta how I know that , that's why I think ge doesn't really hang out in neighborhood with her , I think she may know who I am and would be uncomfortable herself , I do not bother them ever , I'm respectful of his relationship regardless of how it started , but we have same friends me and him, we are all one circle of friends so it has put alot of the friends in weird spots , some are confused by his actions , so I think she knows about me , on the bus she didn't look too happy when she saw me , maybe she knows the history with me and him , he was family to me , still is , I just looked at floor when she looked at me. I don't want say anything to anyone because I'm a private girl but I need to find out if its a everyday routine for her so I can figure out what to do . But I can't ask anyone because I don't want him to know I'm asking , and i don't wanna put anyone in a bad spit its selfish of me so I'm lost on what to do , that's my main question ,? I know he worries about never being able to hold down a relationship , at one pt he said he wished he could tell me and it hurt him he couldn't , for his sanity he had to try a relationship