Thanks everyone!

Petunia, I did have a couple of seminars that I listed on my resume. It wasn't much though.

Spal, thanks for your thoughts. I've told T most of this, and hopefully I'll get up the nerve to talk about it with the group (I struggle with social anxiety). I don't know if it's worth sticking with them or not. Maybe I should give them a say. I like your suggestion of inviting people over for videos. That's a good idea, and my ex-lover would obviously not be there.

Keb6137, thanks also for your support and hug!

I appreciate and am re-reading all the comments. It helps to have some support. I'll try to make "this is temporary" into my new mantra...

Sidony