A major wrench is in the works for my appointment on Monday. I'm so angry I could scream and holding it in is making it worse but I'm afraid of letting it loose. My anxiety is through the roof. I'm exhausted, I got less than two hours sleep. I don't think I can cope anymore. It's seriously time to think about options to this misery of a life. I can't take it anymore and I don't see wtf is holding me back.