I wanted to update everyone that might look at this.

I have found a therapist that I am starting to trust. She is very nice and speaks in soft emotional terms. I find that hard since I am logical, and analytical. On top of that my cPTSD makes me afraid to make mistakes, so not having a plan feels dangerous. This relaxed environment is strange for my 'list' driven mind. I guess I am still in stage 1, might be easier once I relax and start feeling again.

I almost left her care once, but I am willing to give her a chance for a while. She seems to have the experience and she seems to care. I know I have started to improve with Medication and developing tools to use.

I did have one of the stronger EFs last Friday, but I was able to cut it short by talking about it. I was pretty happy with that, well, and the fact that I have had less recently. We are also working on my fear/road-rage when commuting.

Things are going well it seems and I have been only going for 6 weeks. On top of this I am reading a lot of books on trauma, doing meditation 4+ days a week, and unprescribed EFT (Tapping). Thing are continuing to improve and I am getting more insight.

Best to all.