Gostryter, I'm so sorry.....

I don't have much to offer. I can only say that it is worth it to keep on going. Some day things will be good again, and the bad is temporary.

At least that's what I'm telling myself right now 'cause I'm having a hell of a hard time too. But this thread is about you! So I'm sending caring thoughts your way too. It will get better....

Sidony