Oh Angela and Wendy, I am so confused. Am I really crazy? How distorted are the way I see things? How much do I change the truth of things in my head?

The session went well, i guess. I faded out several times unfortunately, so my memory of it isn't as clear as I would like. I need to talk to Catherine. I need to call her. She didn't suggest to Chris that he get any counseling or any help with the money situation. She did make him promise, and me too so he would feel picked on, that he not spend any money (other then our allowances) on stuff without discussing it first with the other. That was it. She spoke to us as if it was known we would have another session but she never scheduled that session. She always asks me to schedule another session. I am telling myself she didn't schedule one because she wants to see me in our session in a couple of weeks to find out how things went. But part of me feels like I am the crazy one.

He told her I am like two people. One sad and one happy. Does he love the sad person? That is what I want to know. Maybe if I knew he loved her then I wouldn't have to escape her using the blade.

I don't know, I am just confused. To much information that isn't processing and to muddled of a head to process it anyway. Best thing to do is to put it aside. If I am crazy then I am. Just so long as he keeps his promise and doesn't spend money the he shouldn't. I can cope with that. I have been nuts long enough to be used to being so. Its ok.
Carrie

PS sorry if I offended anyone by using the words crazy and nuts. It is just how I feel right now. I usually don't feel that way. Confusion is disturbing to me. Not knowing what is happeing to me. Having my concept of the world shaken and not knowing where to set my foot next.