I'm kind of in that same boat. Now all of a sudden my T is trying to get me to talk about my hurt related to her, but I'm afraid to, because I'm afraid she'll send me packing. She knows I feel that way. And even though she says she won't, she changed boundaries after I told her something in February that pertained to her, even though the assured me before I told her that "nothing will change HERE." I just can't believe her.....so I'm afraid to talk about it. And talking about it wont' change anything. Although, for the first time in 7 months, she told me how sorry she was during my session yesterday, and said she learned a "hard lesson" and will not be doing it again. I should be able to move on now, because that's all I really wanted. For her to admit that she hurt me, and to try to save other people from having the same thing happen to them. I'm afraid the hurt will never go away completely.