I have to start going to a support group Monday. My therapist has spent many months now being gentle with me but this turned into a pushing, tearful session a few weeks ago and now that I've had time to try to find out all the options in my really rural area (none) and compare other groups to drive times and proximity on certain days I have group attempt #1 Monday.

I did go to a group for a while a few years ago but it was in the city and too far (and expensive) to drive to it. This time I've found something on my therapy day.

I guess the group before was OK but I didn't feel like I fit in well; the others lived closer and would meet for dinner and stuff that I couldn't afford even if I lived there but defintiely couldn't do with an extra trip to the city added in.

I'm nervous about it because I don't really feel comfortable dealing with people who don't know me when I'm mid-episode. I am very flat right now and I feel like I come across as rude. Which I don't intend to be, I just don't feel all that lively. And as far as just letting the depression show, that is so incredibly hard for me to do that I'm not sure I'll ever manage. Although I do in the hospital so in theory another safe place should be the same.

Just interested in whether others go and if it helps.