I suck at relationships. I have only had dysfunctional relationships. Several long term, several short term.

I haven't dated in several years. I haven't had a boyfriend for 6 yrs.

I want to date, because I am lonely. I don't want to date, because it feels like it is too much effort.

I have a hard time keeping even emotionally, and I am afraid to have a relationship because I am worried about my stability.

Can anyone relate?