Wow...that sounds really complicated! I have been diagnosed with ptsd and chronic anxiety. I have had various medications but am not on any at the moment. I have been having weekly therapy for 2 years. Although it has been helpful in some ways, sometimes it has felt unbearable and overwhelming "reliving " my childhood traumas. Recently I have learnt "mindfulness meditatation", which has been helpful. If you google it, you can learn more about it. Its really just about being present in the "moment". Good luck. Talking here on this site, has also been helpful as its just good to communicate with others who understand. Take care K