My therapist had this discussion about accepting you who for who you are. It is a major step in recovery but harder to accomplish than said. I need some ideas, pointers of acceptance. Because I think acceptance is not enough. You need LOVE. Now here is the problem, how do I love someone (self) is I do not like myself? I have done many things in the past that I am not proud of. I cannot love others either unconditionally. I am a bit critical of others as I am with myself. Some peeps are jerks and have major character flaws, some are just nice and cope. Peeps are different. I cannot seem to love unconditionally, and certainly do not Love myself. That is why I am a sexual-masochist. I have had major transformation, so I'm no longer the old self. I am better, more spiritual, but somehow I cannot like the old me. I cannot forget or forgive. I have regrets. I have no friends at all. I cope with taking pills. She(my therapist) told me to imagine my younger self and embrace him. I am trying but its not working.