Hugs to you my friend. Bravery comes with a cost. Pain brings growth. I am glad you are getting a counselor. Be kind to yourself, write a journal how you feel. Rereading mine I find helps me sort out why i was feeling the way i was. Take the time to discover what you want in life. All of us do not want to be alone. There are different levels of friendship, trust, and acceptance. These are things you will grow through. Life is a journey. I am in my 50's and going through a very hard situation. It is not easy to let go, but some things we need to let go to be able to have both hands to accept what is new to receive it. I find having a gratitude journal and writing three good things in it every day helps keep me focused. Your sibling, pity them for they suffer as much as you do. Anger destroys people. Find three good things about your sibling and then pray for them in their hurt and pain. Pray for your parents where they fail you, to be better parents. They suffer to with the weight of the world on their shoulders struggling to keep a family together. Parents are two people like you dealing with life also. Be kind to yourself, and find something lovely, positive to think on and go from there. And mostly, write something that you like about yourself. You are a good person, you just need some affirmation, love and kindness in your life. Let it happen for you. Blessings...