((((((((Carrie))))))))))

I don't think you are crazy. You have ups and downs, and we all do. You are asking some really good questions here. How about asking those questions to the people who can answer them? Ask your husband if he loves the sad you as well as the happy you. I think it would be maddening to wait a couple of weeks to discuss this with Catherine. Is calling her to talk about it an option? I know I would want to do that.

Take Care,
Wendy