I really don't know what you should do but I wanted to say that I think you are being so smart and self aware about this.

It is painful to realize that we can't do what other people do and that there is stuff that we need to give up because of this disorder.

But the health and well being and feeling good is so worth it.

But your right it takes a lot of courage and balls to do what needs to be done in order to protect yourself.

I was once in a somewhat similar though seemingly very much less formal kind of situation. I didn't know I was Bipolar though. I just knew I was losing my **** and I needed out and fast. So I just quit. and it was hard but I gave a bunch of notice and just dealt. It was absolutely the right thing to do.

I was extreeeeeeeemely stressed about doing it though which did not help with the **** losing.

I hope someone has some good practical advice about how to through with this for you.

But I think you're being awesome and remember

"You have to participate relentlessly in the manifestations of your own blessings."
~Elizabeth Gilbert