Feel like I dropped my guard off. For one moment, I lowered the wall of faked feelings of superiority, because of sympathy. And then I was - metarophically speaking of course - stabbed by a thousand spears. What has sympathy given me besides pain? Nothing. Absolutely nothing. And yet I keep on, desperately trying to garner attention, hoping, HOPING so much to just.... just be loved. But it ain't going to happen, no matter how hard I try, and trust me: I try a LOT.
Feel so lied to. Women... women only bring me pain. I even fail at internet relationships, haha, how pathetic can a person be... So to hell with them. Who needs them anyway?
So back to faking superiority I go. This time I won't drop my guard. Isn't worth it. I'm alone and I'll stay alone forever. For the better. For ME.