If I understand what you are saying does that make me a horrible frog. It is so hard to function when everything is so mixed up. Sometimes just getting out of bed is a monumental task.
When life throws us a load of rotten tomatoes we feel poopy. That "make tomoto soup" idea is ridiculous.
Just to try and lift you spirits a little bit....first one to fill a gallon jug with tears wins. Have to warn you I have a head start..
I think you are a special person and miss you when you are not around
Stay in touch. I care