i have been feeling like this in my marriage...
been married for 3 years...i felt like i have always had to initiate sex...i felt so not loved by him...at times i thought that maybe he was still in love with his ex, or that i just wasn't his type...the tall and slim type as he has spoke about so much before...this has completed destroyed my confidence...i masturbate many times so i can get so tired and pass out and fall asleep...i would wait and wait until he finally wants to do it and then i would feel so gross and weird when we do it because i would be thinking that he was doing it just as a duty...not because he really wanted me...
i have asked him if he wants a girlfriend on the side...but of course he said no...i don't know what to do...i don't know if I am addicted to sex or what...
i have talked about this many times with him...but things are the same as before, i can't talk about it anymore than i have already...
i have tried to get drunk, or taken sleeping pills so i can fall sleep without thinking about sex or touching him in bed...
i don't know what to do anymore.