I've been to 4 therapists now...and not one has truly been my friend....don't get me wrong being professional CAN be good. But to what point? How is being proffessional always going to help when you need a hug? A smile...someone to be there always...? Today I have an appointment at 2....I'm so afraid for the past 3 weeks she's been on vacation (only saw her twice before...) I've been crying horrible...the 2 times I saw her..she didnt even shake my hand like my previous ones...nor gave me a hug when I needed it...the last time I saw her I waited at the door..as she went to her desk...this was after the appointment was over.....i was waiting for her to come back to shake my hand..hug..whatever...but she didnt...she just opened the door and say bye have a good week...blah blah...

world doesnt like me does it