Thanks guys I've slept on it now ---- and don't feel any better. URGH, I am just soooooo embarrassed. I wish I could be relied on to behave like a normal person when Im socialising. But no. My friends think yesterday was hilarious - they don't realise that most of me would never ever behave like that. THATS NOT ME. I mean, it was me - twenty years ago. But not now. Im not like that any more, and the impact this could have on my ability to socialise in the future ---its so damaging. I really should not be allowed out in public. I don't want to be that person. I want to be a nice girl!