Thanks for all your replies. Will definitely look at the links soon.
Thank you for the encouraging words DysphoricManicMom. I can see you can relate . Hope you can work out your meds. School holidays is almost over here and I will get back to the gym more. That does help to settle anxiety and gets me more grounded & positive. I do apologize to my kids and explain to them that I do not mean to yell or get angry. I try to walk away and put myself in time-out.
Will look into therapy for the kids that is available for free, but am a little worried about that one. The wrong therapist can do more harm than good (I had lots of therapy when I was young, so I know!). Unbelievably any help like this cost top $ here in Aus or it has huge waiting list and you don't know who you will get.
Thanks again