How does someone who is strong constantly break the barriers to get help? I have always sucked it up and kept going forward no matter what. Now I am in a solitary place and it echoes with silence. I have always pushed everything to the back of my mind going forward. Now thoughts are barraging me and I am in a timeless place with memories that I had once processed but are resurfacing. I did what others told me to do, I got over it, but not really. I just compartimentalized the emotions to where I feel they are sabotaging me. How does one deal with numbness of years of being strong now facing their vulnerabilities that are glaring? I never ask for help for that is a sign of weakness according to my upbringing, and one never discusses family outside the house. So I am trying to process the thoughts with the attachments to put it back in the mind again, to not resurface in order to function. I find myself pushing people away and isolating. I want my sanctuary to not have to deal with people because they are so disappointing to me. I find they mean well but they drain me emotionally and I am becoming cold.