Hey I'm sorry you are dealing with this but you are being so mature in trying to take care of yourself. I self dxed myself with cyclo senior year of highschool but it never even occurred to me that it was something I needed help for.

What kind of relationship do you have with your mom?

If it is a great healthy loving supportive relationship than it makes sense to try to get her to see what you're dealing with and talking about.

If not....then this is your own road and it may be less stressful to deal with it yourself and just try to find a way to get yourself to the resources you need.

Other people have good advice about getting to a therapist first and then telling them what you are thinking and feeling. If they happen to be a crap therapist who won't really listen or doesn't get you (these exist) then you may need to try again for another one.

I think you're being awesome