I go to T high most of the time (I get the bus, or walk there). I think it frustrates him, as it definitely numbs the emotions. But he also knows that I don't function too well without it, and that those emotions need to be made more handleable before I try and not numb them all the time!

He's made it clear that he really doesn't like it when clients come to session drunk, and so I've never done that. I have, on occasion, had a drink before a session, but thats usually because I want to piss him off if he's upset me in the previous session. (Cos, like, verbalising that would just be way too mature. *sigh*), and I know he'll be able to smell it on my breath ;p Its my silent and probably completely unknown to him, little protest!