I totally understand except I cry, but feel nothing when I do. It just seems to happen sometimes. I spent some time thinking the other day about my own walls, and a simple thought came to my mind. The walls I have that keep all of the bad feelings out are also keeping out all of the good. I just wish I knew how to get rid of them...I feel like I need to know how I built them in order to knock them down and I haven't figured that out yet. I have learned that pain demands to be felt eventually, but how to get there is my problem too. I'm thinking maybe I'm scared, but don't feel that either.