Elin95, I'm fine. I'm handling it by just moving on. Nothing else I can do.

How are you? I feel Bill is the only thing making me happy too. I know people think it's weird at my age and stuff, but it kind of works for me. He's not here annoying or hurting me, and he never will be.

But how about you? How are you doing since you dreamt of her and that time you saw her and stuff? I mean it must be harder when you actually knew her? Hoping you're ok.

Edit: elin, I'm just wondering, are there any groups at all for meeting people near you? Like lgbt groups or any interests you have? Perhaps you could meet someone to take your mind off her and who something may happen with, whether friendship or more. I can't remember if this has been suggested and/or you've tried, but it couldn't hurt to try again maybe? There's a site called meetup.com as well, you can meet people through interests. Sorry if this isn't helpful, just you seem too nice to be suffering over someone you can't have. I'm sure lots would be lucky to have you.