Today is not a good day. I've barely eaten and I skipped going to church. Didn't want anyone to ask me how I was...afraid I'd burst into tears. My husband went with the children. I've been trying to decide if it's time. If it's time i seek hospitalization help because I just feel emotionless/empty...barely functioning like I use too. My husband looks so sad because he's doing everything and trying. He just leaves me alone and that really gets to me even more. I feel super alone even though all of these precious little voices are running around the house. I just can't bring myself to come out of the room to attempt enjoying family time. The thought of going to work (the place that has triggered this deep depression) depresses me even more. I have nothing prepared for the work week (I'm a teacher) because the demands are beyond ridiculous and I just want to quit...like right now. My mind has been all over the place today. What do I do? Tears have been flooding today on top of no sleep.