I haven't detected the slightest bit of immaturity of awkwardness in any of your posts here. I don't know what you've posted in the past, but from what I've read here, you're very intelligent, well-spoken, sensitive, and depressed. I don't know why anybody would call you immature. Creativity and weirdness are assets, not drawbacks. You can accomplish great things in life BECAUSE you're weird, not in spite of it. Don't try to fit in with everybody else, it's a complete waste of time.