It's ok to ask for help, and coming here is a sign that you are indeed reaching out. Ok, not the most effective solution but look you are already sharing your issues somewhere, somewhere safe. Thanks for sharing!

I think you should reach out for a therapist now, but that is only one mans opinion. There's a lot of stuff hitting you right now, and it's the perfect time to get help and the relief that might be a breath of fresh air.

As far as isolating that's tricky ground. In the short-term isolating feels good, it's easier, you block out the world, you can go numb, you can feel safe; but let me tell you that's always temporary and isolation turns into a negative spiral affecting your emotions bringing on more depression or what symptoms you carry. It is an impossible sanctuary.

I've been going through a similar experience with isolation. Often times I feel too overwhelmed to intermix with people. I might be in a room full of people and still be isolating without even knowing it. However, are acknowledging the facts that short-term it feels good, but long-term is does more damage I had to change my behaviour. Although it hurts sometimes to have low self-esteem and call someone and be left feeling inferior, whether im distorting it, or not. It does you good to engage with the world. Short story short, I find isolation is not good for your health.

I think you're smart, and you will definelty get through this point in your life. Getting help, supports, and pills (if it's neccesary) are the keys to a stable happy life. Well not happy, but sometimes?

Good luck!