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Originally Posted by BeyondtheRainbow
You seem tortured by this. Would your family and pdoc support cutting back on meds so that you can see in a controlled way what happens without meds? It might answer your questions. It's extreme but so is the torture you express so often. My heart aches reading your posts because you are so tortured by this.
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what I am going to say I expect no one to understand ... as I don't either ... I feel ashamed because I do not feel I am worthy to be here ... I function so well, have a home, a job, a wife, and still feel I have never been manic ... reguardless of what my pdoc says ... I feel like I am cheating somehow ... so many have so much suffering in their lives and mine is .. (not that hard) ... the medical world says I am bp ... but I don't see it and I feel guilty because of that .... I know this makes no sense but I feel unworthy to be called bipolar ....
I feel guilty , ... like I am a fraud ...