I would bet you'll become more secure over time. I know I did.

I read an article once, "Finding a therapist is like finding your soulmate," and wondered if there was something wrong with my T/ with me because I didn't have some mystically good rapport or whatever the therapeutic equivalent of 'love at first sight' is.

Now I'm glad I stuck it out. I mean, human relationships are kind of messy in general, right? And if you have trouble relating to people in general, why would it be radically different with your T?

Anyway, I found that navigating difficulties actually strengthened my relationship with my T. Alliances are built over time.

Of course, if your T actively creeps you out or anything like that, you might want to shop around.

Take care.