Having trouble with anger... not at anyone in particular, just frustrated with people in general. I don't understand how people can be so stupid and not realize it. I've had to stop going on facebook almost completely because of some of the crap that keeps coming up... just idiotic comments by people I don't even know. But it makes me so frustrated... I feel like I'm the only person who understands how screwed up the human race is. Like I'm the only one who gets that we're a waste of space and that we don't deserve to even exist. Sometimes I wish we'd all go extinct. And sometimes I wish I could make that happen.

The older I get, the more cynical I become. I'm only 22, and this is the kind of stuff that goes through my head on a pretty regular basis. Usually I try to ignore it by focusing on how good my fiance makes me feel, but some days it's hard to see past the crap that's happening in the rest of the world. He's the opposite of me... so much hope and kindness for people. All I can see is failure and destruction.

I wonder if I feel like this because my birthday is coming up... it's just a reminder that another year has passed and nothing has changed in the world. And there's nothing I can do about it.