hi jman, i hear you. i know what it's like to feel completely alone in this life.

i would suggest you do something, perhaps get a hobby, something that promotes feelings of success in yourself. are you good at drawing? do you like writing? or even maybe read a good book. i recently started this book called "never knowing" by chevy stevens. i am not diagnosed with depression, i have schizoaffective disorder bi-polar type, but i can relate to the extreme lows. as you can tell i am suggesting you find a distraction, anything but focus on all the crap swirling around you. do you have any animals? you could take your dog for a walk, or chill with your cat. i find going for long walks and just taking in the nature, even if it's a city, just people watch, absorb your surroundings... try to think how their lives are going... sometimes i go out and people watch and make up conversations i think they're having just to make myself laugh.

you have to remember that even though it seems like you're always depressed, there has got to be something even for a brief moment that brings you some momentary happiness. try focusing on that! think about your future in a positive light! i know everything seems like crap, or everything is stupid, but you've got to pull yourself out of this funk. you'll find that your mind is strong, you can convince yourself of anything. learn to appreciate the small things in life, the warmth of the sun... a bird chirping, whatever.

hope this brought you some sort of comfort.