I hate when some sessions I don't connect with my T. All week I wonder if I said something I shouldn't or is he mad at me or what is going on. I'm so afraid of him not wanting to see me anymore.

He says he won't abandon me, but it just doesn't set into my brain. I would like to talk to him about these feelings, but I don't want him to know I need him as badly as I do.

By the next session everything is different and I'm feeling good again.

I don't like that my entire life surrounds him.