I am drinking again so my apologies for rubbish grammes. Yes I know it's 09.55 please don't judge.

Today is a bad day a few days ago I found out he cheated. My body is numb but my mind just will not stop. He asked me to marry him bit I do not know how to feel. I have been 8n a crisis and are getting help but I blame myself . I do not know what to dk