Damn, I didn't sleep at all. Went to bed at 9AM only to wake up 3 times throughout the night to get on my computer to check for replies here and to check my email. I'm really quite pathetic.

If I didn't have such a hard time opening up to people then this wouldn't be a big deal to me, but after this experience, I'm going to have a much harder time obtaining any kind of closeness with anybody ever again.

What's bad is that I actually took some of the things that she said about me to heart and I woke up at 12AM and sent her a detailed apology letter kindly stating that I was wrong and begging her forgiveness.

It is true that I haven't been open with her in recent months, but do you blame me? She flips out on me when I say certain things and after our first real argument, I've become afraid to even tell her the truth about certain parts of my life or being open with her because she treats me like this when I do.

Ah well, I need to avoid emotional attachments while I fix my life anyways especially ones that aren't worth the energy.