What a nightmare. Almost got sectioned, freaked out on a night out with friends and now I have to start uni. This is pushing my limits. But I have to do it. No time to waste. Increased my depot, maybe that will make living with the truth easier. Social obligations everywhere. I want to make and keep friends I don't want to be alone like last year. Got to keep the face on they must only see normal. I'm sure I will be okay but I can't seem to see it right now. Had a lecture and couldn't concentrate none of her words went in it's like they were hitting a brick wall. Risperidone every night maybe that will help. I don't believe in medication for a condition that doesn't exist but I will cooperate for the good of the world and my world.