no sleep last night. head felt so overwhelming with voices, chattering, and fear. feels as though one walking without living. feel worthless and like we don't fit. some days just want out, this is one of those days. silence seems to surround, too scared to trust, too scared to be heard. each day feels like treading through quicksand that is pulling farther and farther down into the black silent hole. no one knows or can hear, for this silence leads to aloneness and aloneness leads to nothingness. too bad to be held, too ugly to be.....this is one of those days.....shhhhhhhh...............