Are you waiting for possible friends to come to you? What are you actively doing to pursue friendships? Is it possible you have been misconstruing aquaintanceships for friendships?

Just the thoughts that immediately come to my mind.

I have no problem with people of large size. In fact it's the opposite, I don't have a lot of respect for those that are thin just for the sake of being fashionable. I loathe other women and girls who flaunt their appearance. It is just so fake. I look at people of average and larger sizes as being more honest and attractive.

What I don't like is people who just don't care about themselves and their appearance. One doesn't have to have the latest fashion (again, I almost disrespect this) but one should make an effort to be well put together. I don't expect people to visit the gym, but I think they should be active - even if it's just walking.
So, that is what I find physically active.

But attractiveness for me goes well beyond the physical. I am most attracted to people who believe in themselves. I am also attracted to people who are gregarious. And then I really like people who like people. Such people are a boost to my self esteem and fit in with my own exroverted nature.

I hate to say it but I find myself avoiding people who are shy or really down on themselves. I have my own issues, I just don't want to be brought down by theirs. I do have a few aquaintances I am always building up and am their only source of socialization but I will honestly say the suck energy and I regulate the time I specd with them. I dislike those who are vain and conceited. And what I dislike most is those who don't make an effort for self care.